Surprise!

So I know I said I'd try and explain my last though a little clearer... but I've decided that I should stop saying I'll do things when I probably wont. Therefore - if you want me to explain, just comment. Otherwise I'm going to move on to something that doesn't require much thinking. 

Question: Have you ever planned and thrown a surprise party before? Have you ever hand-made invitations and then sent them out? (snail mail... none of this e-mail stuff) Then bought all the supplies, food, checked the guest list, and all while making sure the no one ruined the surprise? 

Well if you have, then you know why I'm so darn tired right now! (And yes, I'm going to bed soon.)

My siblings and I just held a surprise 30th Wedding Anniversary party for my parents and about 50 people showed up! Lets just say it was super busy, and my cheeks hurt from smiling and talking. 

Trying to keep it a secret while making sure my parents didn't come home sooner than planned was a mission. My dad basically had to force my mom to want to stay up north another day before getting home... jeepers. 

But... overall there was success! They were surprised and happy and that's all that counts. :)

Now my mom can stop telling us how disappointed she is that she's never had an anniversary party. 

Goodnight, I'm going to go rest my cheeks.  

Crave You

Isn't it just a little bit crazy how fast life swooshes right by us? 

Lately I've been thinking a lot about the last few years and just how different it's been compared to how I expected it to be. 

Four years ago I was trying to decide what to do with my life - I had just graduated from high school, I wasn't a smarty-pants, I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life, or where I wanted to go to college. And now, four years later, I've graduated from a program that I absolutely loved, I graduated with honours, and I've been offered a job to continue working at the company I've been doing my internship with! Who woulda thought that after all these years (which to me seem like a lot. Because when you're 22, four years is a long time), life would turn out this way? 

It's totally beyond me. 

So even though I've been offered the job at the Circus there's some unfinished dreams of mine that I've decided to take care of first. 

Last week I was accepted to attend YWAM in Los Angeles, California! It's basically a six month long mission trip, but in the first few months we stay at the base for the lecture phase: reading the Bible, studying, and learning about God and missions before we go to different countries doing the outreach phase, aka missions. 

I can't explain how excited I am about this new adventure. God has been doing some crazy things in my life over the last couple years and I think this is one way of Him telling me that there's way more I need to do with my life before I settle down and marry into a relationship that's so stationary.... 

I truly believe that everything happens for a reason, and that God has a plan for everyone in every situation. I believe that when God closes a door, He opens a window... and maybe not right away, but He will eventually. I also believe that God works for the good of those who love him, and even though I mess-up drastically all the time... I still believe that I'm forgiven and God really does have my best interest at heart. 

Tonight I was at my Bible study in Guelph (which I LOVE, btw) and we've been going through the book of Revelation. OMG. Throughout all my years of growing up in a Christian home and going to Sunday school, youth group and Bible quizzing, etc... I've never really known a lot about Revelations because it freaked me out to the point of having nightmares. But studying it now makes everything I've learned up until now so much clearer. It's like the missing puzzle piece and without it, the picture just isn't interesting. 

Anyways... it's not just located in one verse of Revelation, but overall what we noticed today is that more than ANYTHING (besides loving God) we as Christians are supposed to spread the Gospel. By not doing that we are deliberately disobeying God, and that is reason enough for God to punish us - Now that might sound a little harsh, strong, or even crazy... but when you read Revelation and piece it together with the other books... it's so true. 

Wow... it's definitely something to think about. 

I'll try and make it more clear tomorrow.... but if you want to try and understand it for yourself... then study it! 

p.s. i love it when it rains at night. 

Short.love.

In a spur-of-the-moment... and, well - also after lots and lots of mental preparation, I made the decision to make the cut. 

Yes, I have cut off just about all of my hair! And I hope that it's not too conceited of me to say that I think it looks great! 

It's completely different. It's edgier, confident, and definitely so refreshing! I never thought I'd be this happy with it. I thought I'd go through 'hair' withdrawal and cry until it all grew back... but I guess when something is just so perfectly right, there's no reason to doubt it!

Here are some pics from this weekend... let me know what you think! 

Saturday was one of the most fun days I've had in a while... I spent it with two of my besties! (above)On the left is Carolina George, a Windsor grown winter gal who loves cold weather more than life itself! And on the right is my little brothers glamorous gf Laura from the lovely London, Ontario! Lets just say we all have lots in common... especially our love for tea, shopping and taking a trip to the Shed - the cutest coffee bar in Ontario!

And although I don't have any pictures to prove it, I spent my Saturday night with some of the other most amazing friends a girl could ever have! It was Steph's 23rd birthday bash and we spent it at MINK nightclub in TO.... it was my first experience at a club in Toronto and I've gotta say that overall it was a good one! It's so amazing to be reunited with the friends I feel I've grown so far away from... always worrying and feeling insecure about being forgotten since I'm the one out of the loop these days. But after that night, it just made me realize that the friendships I have with these girls will never go away because of a silly thing like distance.... well, at least that's how I see it! 

Friends Forever gf!

Happy 'uh' Canada Day...

So I'm sitting on my couch with my dad right now, and we're both just on our laptops 'surfing the net'... 

I'm bored. And when I say bored I don't mean just that I want something to do right now. It's more like how it's Canada Day and while most of the country will be spending it with friends and family, going on picnics or partying downtown, I know for a fact that I'm going to be bored for the next four days - and that's REALLY bored. It's the worst kind. The kind that makes me mad that I'm stuck at home and because it means all my friends are probably doing fun stuff without me - my sister is working all weekend, my other sister is gone to camp (which I'm extremely jealous about), and so it's probably just going to be me and my mom for the remainder of the weekend... and all I really want to do is go see Eclipse. 

And the other sucky part is that I'm not really that 'stuck' at home - I have my own car and I can do as I please... but sometimes it's just nice to do something fun with friends, you know?
So I know I've been a crazy rambler lately... and not usually about happy things. But by now you've probably noticed that I get frustrated with life, myself, and pretty much anything these days. There are things I could be doing today, but I know that if I do them someone else will be upset because it's left them out or alone for a day or two. Jeepers. 

So maybe I'll just paint my nails red, put on my new clothes that I bought from Forever XXI, and find my parents' old SLR, buy some film and go on a photographing mission by myself. 
New clothes always make things brighter... and maybe I'll get my hair done on Saturday too.